In this compelling story about the moment that Kristen was preparing to testify against her attacker, Kristen acknowledges a number of difficulties that many survivors encounter, including the reaction of parents and loved ones, the seemingly unavoidable barrage of memories of the attack, as well as some of the physical reactions one has to memories of the attack. Wonderfully descriptive, this story allows even the most far removed reader to really experience exactly what Kristen was going through during that very difficult time.
“The dam behind my eyes continued to build as each second passed; I was nervous it would break. The sweat was consuming my body, but it wasn’t a normal sweat. There were no drips running down my cheek, no beads forming on my forehead, and the color of my shirt hadn’t changed under my arms. This sweat was more agitating; I was squirming and fighting to get it off of me. I was panicking and felt under attack by the silent sweat that was steaming out of the pores of my skin.”