I just turned 17 years old in Septemeber, and for the past 3 years i have suffered PTSD because i was abused by my boyfriend when i was only 14. I see him almost everyday at school and for a long time I hated my life. I hated my family. I hated my friends. I blamed God for letting it happen to me.
My boyfriend was only a year older than me, but I believed he was stronger than me, and better than me, and I lost all faith in myself. I believed I was nothing more than just someone’s used goods and he was the best I deserved. I was brainwashed, in a way. He raped me comstantly, and beat me, but never hit my face because then someone would see it. He got me pregnant, and beat me till I miscarried. You could say I was possibly my worst nightmare. I was 14 and he took my innocence and used it to his advantage. Though i hate what he did, and the fact that I was to scared to do anything, I am not ashamed to admit what has happened. I am training to work in a shelter for abused childern and to be a therapist. Now I can relate to people I never thought I would understand. I have hope, and I will stop this from happening if it’s the last thing I do. I want to save a life the way my little neice has saved mine.