My biggest fear lies in my bed.
I awake to choking sessions,
And suffocation rituals.
“Move your arms, bitch, or I’ll break them!”
Of course I love him,
But can he ever stop this madness?
I lie half-naked beneath him
Being attacked by some unknown evil
That lurks beneath his beautiful face.
“No I won’t let you do this to me!”
Though I know he could snap me like a twig.
“Please baby, don’t hurt me.”
I cry in silent tears.
I love you.
You kiss me.
You fuck me.
You beat me.