To Tell or Not To Tell

by: Ronda White

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he abused me but i keep asking myself..
to tell or not to tell?
he said he’d kill me but still
to tell or not to tell?
I felt pretty..
to tell or not to tell?
I thought he loved me
to tell or not to tell?
I thought people would judge me
to tell or not to tell?
mom didn’t believe me
to tell or not to tell?
it wasn’t a fun game
to tell or not to tell?
I wish I could have ran
to tell or not to tell?
there was no place to hide
to tell or not to tell?
i talked to myself to stay under control
to tell or not to tell?
the memories won’t stop
to tell or not to tell?
my mind is constantly replaying the fear and hurt
to tell or not to tell?
I fell to pieces
to tell or not to tell?
It was either protect my family or die
to tell or not to tell?
I thought I was crazy
to tell or not to tell?
I couldn’t keep our secret anymore
to tell or not to tell?