Ransom
by: Sarah Ann Henderson
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Love me
I try
Love me
won’t cry
What else will you ask me to do?
I allow it
yes daddy
I crawl
to your lap
Exodus, this is your cue
With nothing
to say
And nowhere
to go
I’ll pay the ransom that is due
The hands
the fingers
The eyes
and the smile
And a sinister giggle or two
My body explodes in a histamine fit
I think I’m allergic to you
I pretend that your hands don’t get through
This is part of my bargain with you
You’ll love me if I can stay still
and be quiet until you are through
As I lie there
and stare
With a mind
unaware
I attempt by this stillness to say:
I HAVE control, daddy, I do
Of threats there are more than a few
Unspoken but nonetheless true
No one would know, even I would not see
The invisible black and blue
I would try
to deny
and realize
as I died
The only sure thing that I knew
Despite all the tears
and my “unexplained” fears
Everyone would believe YOU
© Sarah Ann Gaston 2002