It Wasn’t My Fault

by: Laura Connett

 

I don’t know why I do the things I do,
But nobody will ever love as much as I love you.
It wasn’t rape, I’m just an average guy,
You are all mine, you should’ve wanted to satisfy.

It was rape, you forced your way inside,
I remember shouting no, tugged my jeans up, tried to hide.
You don’t mean to hurt me, I forgive you,
I don’t trust you but I can’t live without you.

I never mean to hurt you, I love you so much,
You need me, you’ll fall apart without my clutch.
The thought of losing you is hard to bear,
I didn’t mean it, there won’t be a next time, I swear.

You get so angry, grabbed me and squeezed,
Saw me cry in pain, carried on until I was at my knees.
Told me I deserved to cry, it will teach me a lesson,
I don’t deserve you, I’m just your possession.

I don’t want to lie to you, but I’m just too good,
I promised myself I would change but this is in my blood.

It is who you are, you won’t ever stop,
You promised me so many times, now I’ve had enough.
I had to leave, so now you think you have been wronged,
I’ve rebuilt myself with him now, he made me strong.